well.. Am i back? haha
During the holidays, it isn't fun at all..
Alot of things happen around me..
not happy things happening or should
i say abit of happy things? but alot of
hurtful things happening to me during the
holidays..
hmm.. lets start with happy things ;D
my uncle has married and i can get EXTRA
red packet haha.. and happy new year to
everyone.. i think these is the happy things..
i guess so..
Buh-byee~!
Sad things? i dun wish to talk about it.. but
if i don't say it out.. sooner or later, i will be
stuck in the world of dark forever..
As means i don't even belong to the world of
the world of you all are having right now.. idk
name does your world is.. Happy? Contented?
but mine? called sad,lonely,hurtful world.. it isn't
a world for you.. but is for me.. as there's no happy
things happen around me, but turn it over, it's the
sad things happening around me..
Do you think my life sucks? if you were me, knowing
what kind of life i am living, happening in school, would
have the same thinking as me? would you? i think so..
but the kind of life you are living is a comfort life, nice
school.. i really think my life sucks, why don't you
think that my life sucks? Your life is much more
better then mine..
My life sucks when you appear infront of me.. <-- for someone special i think you know who..
ok, now, i just think that i can't believe anyone..
as i cant trust anyone.. especially you..
as i cant believe that you really planned
everything.. you keep hurting me non-stop..
whn i saw you, can i pretend that i don't even
know you before? Can i ? can i? can i?!?!
my life, whn i saw you, my life damn fuck up.
after a period, you keep making me non-stop,
as i really really hate you.. thats what i think for
now, but that's was only my thinking, it might nt
be real.. My heart, my brain can't forget you..
Is this because that i really love you? now i don't
really have that feeling.. Now i have the feeling is
HATE. but i don't think that my feelings to you
is HATE, for now.. i think is nothing? i cant
really hate you..
When the day you have left, i have being
crying and crying in a lonely place.. Why
cant you stop torturing me? you have been
torturing me for a year! Still not enough? or you wan
2 years? 3 years? 4 years? or 5 years?!
i really have enough!! if i said enough, stop it!
will you even stop? or you will contiune? i think
you will contiune.. as maybe you think that i am easy
to bully right? but, you're wrong!
You're all I ever wanted ;
